Friday, April 17, 2009
My sister in law just gave birth yesterday, and when I saw the baby, I felt so many thoughts in my mind, so many emotions in my heart.
All in all, I teared as I stood in amazement of God. I was so amazed how a little life can be formed. I guess you won't really understand how I feel until one day, you see a 'raw' baby being pushed out of the operation theatres.
Passion and desire overwhelmed my heart as I looked at the baby intently. Passion and desire to teach him the ways of God, hopes that he will become a great man of God....
Out of all the feelings and thoughts, I felt inadequate. Inadequate in teaching him.
Thank God that I'm not yet a mother. And thank God for still constantly teaching me.
I love my walk home from the bus stop all the time. That is probably the favourite part of the day. It would always be at night, and I just love the feeling of being alone at times.
The short 10-15 mins allow my mind to wander, and think of things of life... Thinking about my day, and what I should learn about life....
Being away from the crowd feels good at times.
Love aloneness...
Meanwhile, exams are coming, and Im feeling stressed! Ugh! hoho.
Gotta do well.....
i love my God <3