Monday, October 6, 2008
I think there are many boundaries in my life.
Boundaries that I drew up for myself out of my own convictions.
Boundaries that may seem foolish and silly to the people outside.
Boundaries which people can never understand, even if they give their life to understand.
When I say the word ' understand', I do not just mean understanding the reasonings and my heart behind these boundaries. Because I think that is pretty easy to grasp.
When I say 'understand', I mean understanding my entire being.
Boundaries which flowed out of the core of my heart and spirit..
Up to this day, I've been thinking about certain issues of life... Minor issues, but of which such issues speak volumes about the way you perceive things in life.
Some people may think that im stubborn, or to put it in a nicer manner, some people use the word ' passionate'. Whichever word it is, I admit it. I am a pretty stubborn person. Thus passionate about the things which I fall totally in love with.
I know that one day these boundaries will be crossed and must be crossed.
But I guess they will not be so, until I can put my trust in a person, who is willing to draw up boundaries just for me.
Somebody once told me that trust is something that comes from the heart. Agreed totally.
But I think in the process of building up trust for a person, it really isn't all about love.
In the process of building up trust, there must be actions. I must know that you of all people are worth me putting in trust.
How do you trust that Christine will never get herself drank in a pub ?
Because you know her value system, and because you know the essence of her being, and because you know her actions and reactions when it comes to such matters.
Well, that is if you've known Christine for a really long time, long enough to know her character.
What about for a person who hasn't known Christine for as long as you did ?
Well, I think the person will have some doubts. Does Christine really not drink until she's drank ?
That person wouldn't really believe, until he/she goes with Christine to a pub one day.
Logical enough ? Hmm. If you're a logics kinda person, maybe you would once again rebutt my POV with logics.
But for once, let's just put logic aside.
Being convicted by logic is such a weak thing. Its of the mind.
Have you forgotten that the Spirit rules the mind ?
I am a person very attracted to logics. If you're a logical person, you attract me. Woohoo! That means you're attractive to me.
But, you need to be humble and spiritual enough to see the Spirit side of issues which I offer you.
If you can't do that, you're no longer attractive to me. For you are too proud and too ruled by your logical mind....
Use God to explain logic. Not the other way round boy.
